This time last year I was in love with a good man who made me happy, but unfortunately months later, around my birthday, it crumbled. There were no tears, there was no bitterness from me, just disappointment about why/when it ended, overall gratitude for having experienced such a love and CLARITY. Amazing how “love” sometimes makes us turn a blind eye to things we should notice and bring up.
Anyway, ’m not in love now but for the first time in my life, I am writing down what I want to do, be and have for the year. I am building a Vision Board through Pinterest coz I can’t be bothered with magazine cut-outs plus I have nowhere private to hide a physical one – I can’t bear to leave it out in the open.
In the LOVE section of the Vision Board, I wrote that I want to fall in love with a good looking kindhearted man who is generous, emotionally available, has a good job, a bit of money, a love for travel and a good sense of humour. I sent this to a friend this morning and he said this description reads just like me – and he’s right, well, except the money part (which I actually almost let ouf of this post but how else will the universe hear me!).
I’m looking forward to a whole lot of other things this year, they are safely tucked in my secret Pinterest Board but I’m putting out this one that I feel most awkward about sharing. Brené Brown said that Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren't always comfortable, but they're never weakness.' So this is me being strong.
And reminding you that beyond the insta glam, we are all humans seeking the same basic things. We all experience heartache, disappointment, self doubt so don't ever think you're alone, keep going. As long as we have breath, we still have an opportunity to rebuild, reorganize, reshuffle, reconstitute and I'm not giving up on what my heart deserves.
May our dreams come true.